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Friday, October 05, 2007
i have no idea how to express either my rage or my sadness, except here. cos this is where i can really say my true feelings. for the past 21 years of my life, not one friend has ever hurt me in this way. i dunno how to express the pain in my heart. i tried to be nice and i tried to be friends. see wad happens, i fall and fall. is that fair for me. i swore i gave my heart, but i got nothing in return. just plain disappointment. how are they to judge me? how well do they actually know me? i really dunno. maybe we're really not fated. if it was the old me, i wouldn't even care about anything they say, ANYTHING. but now, the situation is different. i have someone i don't want to disappoint. but meanwhile, i too have my pride and resentment. who am i to turn to? no-one. cos i know deep down, my closest friends will back me up. they are the ones who really understand me after all these years. but i really gotta do something about the issue. -sighs-
.:sTella:. at 7:30 PM |
